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Agonized over small decisions Grease fire burst when you left the kitchen Watched wild parrots from the balcony Watched French film 'cause you're sharper than me A small home, a yard with lilacs Debated your lips, dwelled on your chest Offered tutorial, then made it a test Healthy or dark, you wanted partnership Healthy or dark, I wanted no part of it A small home, a yard with lilacs Haunted home, a yard with dead grass I have a need to control, and you love to be told I have a need to step on, and you love to clean soles Nailed yourself to the tile, you're fully committed You'll be there awhile. Maybe I'll drop in.
I wanted a sick thing, and you arrived They call that fortune. Let's keep things fun I prefer upsetting, and you obliged They call that danger. Let's keep things fun I wanted a change, you wanted black eyes They call that kink. Let's keep things fun I was feeling a loss, you're always feeling that loss They call that kismet. Let's keep things fun. Blackout curtains, and "Carry the Zero" Thought sad was sexy, but I think a lot of things Shoplifting for sport, and smashing new phones Thought wild was thrilling, but I think a lot of things Pulling out angrily, and driving aimlessly Thought crisis was compelling, but I think a lot of things On the patio, facedown, and worrying constantly Thought police calls were for me, but I think a lot of things I've given it careful consideration. I hate anything more serious than quick validation. I'm here for a good time. Conversation and dinner I leave once it's over. I disappoint most people I'm here for a good time. Warmth and laughter I'm gone once it's over. I disappoint most people I'm here for a good time. Motels and zip ties I'm gone once it's over. I disappoint most people I'm here for a good time. Mostly your youth I'm gone once it's over. I disappoint most people.
Is it?
I start before you pick up. I'm asking for permission To record some songs about us. To recall some things that happened You offered a helpful context, "it didn't take place on an island" I say, "you need to separate the ill from the illness" You tell me, "it's not so simple. Depression is part and parcel" and you're sick to death of cures for you as a person I say, "that's probably truth. But I could've used some clues long before I got invested." You reply, "I telegraphed it." Daily tears since I met you, and that's not a romantic gesture. True mess, that's my nature. And I guess that's what thrilled you. You wanted it until it bit you. Then you ran like it chased you." I say, "I have a nature too." And you end with, "yes, I know." Sickness excites. Until it's close enough to bite. There's distinct appeal. Until you're beneath its wheels. A true attraction. Until what comes after.


"Colicky" is the new Mini-LP by acclaimed cult independent band Self Defense Family. A dark, roiling post-punk gem written during a time of personal turmoil, "Colicky" is the group's jagged, unflinching look at the disintegration of love and intimacy. The result is a tight and eclectic mini-LP that ranges from cerebrality and coolness to measured chaos.

"Colicky" is the second in the Iron Pier record label's mini-LP series. It will be released on digital formats and black and colored vinyl. The vinyl edition is pressed on two-sided 45rpm 12" vinyl, with all vinyl colorways inserted into beautiful packaging that includes spot-UV designs on the outer sleeve, a series-specific OBI strip, and a printed inner sleeve.

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released September 9, 2016


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